What I am feeling right now.

First off,I want to say Merry Christmas to all.

Secondly, I just want to express what I feel right now.

Got the bud light in my hand, my lil man is sleep ( my son)

And I got alot on my mind its unreal.

LONELINESS. ITS HORRIBLE.

Christmas for me was awesome. I didn't get anything I wanted but LIFE

That's all that matters.

It's cold, and weary outside. It would have been nice to have a special someone with me.

I do have my son. And that is awesome. But, another body, to share warmth with, would have just topped it off.

I don't want to sound selfish. But, I am just tired of being lonely. I want a companion. I want LOVE.

I NEED LOVE. LOVE. LOVE. LOVE. LOVE.

FROM ANOTHER. LOVE. WHERE ARE YOU?????

*Neurosis at her Best*

Comments

1ManView said…

A late Merry Cristmas and a Happier New Year... I understand how you feel. Before that special love fell into my life, there was always a void at this time of the year. You can't replace family, but your soul needs, your heart wants, your flesh needs to be touched in a special way... One day can be tomorrow, or so far down the road you can't see it. But one day you will be bleesed with what your heart seeks...

Have a great day
And even better tomorrows... 1manview...

January 6, 2011 at 11:02 PM

Movie Tavern....

Tinting. That's the movie we saw today. We. As in my son's father, my son and myself. Family Time. Today was the first time in a looong time, that things went smoothly. Today as in January 5th 2012. (Y'all caught me after midnight) The past few nights I have been majorly sick. (Sorry if that's not a word I tend to make things up as I go or type how I speak. Its comforting to me) I told myself I was going to stop drinking and smoking cigarettes. I have been doing good. Real good. But my body is disagreeing with me. Its going through a withdrawel (hope I spelled that right) And its going thru it bad. Been having a bad cough and fever and everything. I called my son's father at about 1 in the morning, after asking everybody else and their mama (including my neighbors) for medicine. His background was kinda loud so I assumed he was out getting drunk. Before i even asked what I needed I hung up in his face. Two minutes later he calls back saying what's wrong is evedy...

She's back.

Just wait for it....

R.I.P. To my Son...

May 19th, 2012 was the day that my life changed. The day that my 2 year old son, took his last breath. For reasons unknown, I do know that he is in a better place. Better than here with all the nonsense that was going on. God called him home for a reason, I dont know why, but it hurts so bad. I miss you baby...I love you so much. *Neurosis at her Best*

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